I have never really been one to make resolutions or goals, but I wanted 2017 to be different. I didn’t want to feel like I was wasting my life, afraid to live my dreams, afraid to do something for me. So the first of the year I created goals and decided on a word for the year after reading this book. My word for the year was Intention. I wanted to be intentional in my marriage, my mothering, and my hobbies. I wanted to create and thanks to Coffee + Crumbs Year of Creativity workshop, I have been able to keep up with my word for the year and the goals I created.
But, I have felt a shift the last few months. I haven’t been as dedicated or as motivated to write or to be intentional, for that matter. I have let fear and doubt talk me out of doing and instead, I have been sulking more than I want to. Part of the reason I decided to start this blog was for accountability. I need something to hold me accountable and get me writing and thinking and noticing more. I don’t want to sit around and wonder and sulk. I want to write.
As May was coming to a close, I thought that this would be a good time to begin thinking of goals I want to achieve each month in regards to my Year of Creativity prompts and this blog, and for my own general well-being.
Honestly, I don’t have any specific or measurable goals in mind for June. I have intentions of accomplishing things that are important to me. But, I also want to be smart. I am a slow writer, it takes me a long time to get the words to where I want them to be. I don’t want to force myself to write x amount of essays a month and post x amount on this blog. I want this to be something I am proud of, and I know I can’t produce writings I am proud of if I am forcing myself. I want to be intentional with my time, my words, and the work that I produce. So, even though those are not measurable goals, those are my goals for June.
I am building my foundation for the next few months. I am going to show myself grace and write because it is what fills my soul, not because producing essays or blog posts is expected of me.